BLANK

your minds right here,
your minds right there,
right now you cant think of anything,
you just seem to feel blank,
troubled or depressed
both words just cant seem to be understood
dont try and understand
being confused you just wont get
just staring at the ceiling i just feel so blank
blank means none, blank means empty,
blank means alot
but you just cant seem to think of anything
blank is white, blank is black,
it can be all shades of gray but what can i say
mind is calm as the ocean but it can be wild as a river
dont try and understand
its sometimes can be misunderstood
sorry i just feel blank words just dont match
ending i just dont know how.

Best friends

I know it's been a while, but I still can't even begin to tell you just how much I miss you guys. I opened some letters you guys gave me. I started to tear. as i was reading, my mom came in the room and asked what was wrong but i just said "nothing" I think I did a pretty good job of hiding my misery...-NOT. anyways. i remember during summer of 2008 I would stay up at night, staring at the ceiling, and the next thing I knew I would just start crying. So much for being a tough girl.

There was a time when I called the States my home. Now I just walk around, blank and uncertain. Even at family reunions, I just don't FIT in. Everything just feels so empty sometimes. Anyway, my new school is big and cold. It's hard when I'm walking from class to class, and I can't help but remember just 11 months ago, everything seemed so perfect.

Everyone tells us how lucky we are, having the opportunity to live in other countries, experience cultures, and travel. I know this is true, and believe me, I'm incredibly grateful. Still, everyone forgets to mention, the moving, the goodbyes, those painful lost "relationships"--and the list goes on. As I think about it more and more, I truly believe we really do have good lives. What we have seen and experienced will, in the end, build us up instead of tear us down. I just wish we could skip all of the hard stuff. We go through more than most people realize, but I think it will be worth it. Just for the time I got to spend with you guys, I would endure a lifetime of being the new kid. For a long time, it seemed that there was no method to the madness of this world. Now I am holding to the belief that there really is a master plan. I do think God has got our lives worked out. It is so easy for me to get apathetic and quit trying. what I am trying to say is I NEED you guys. Maybe if we all keep trying, no matter how far apart we are, we will all get through. i miss you guys.

I wonder what its like to be free..

and be forever untouched by negative things.

" Now I can see that I love all the things

That you do with each day

And it feels, so daaaamn good "

You mean the world the world to me and i care about you so deeply that it hurts for a short time that we are not together each day. My every thought and breath, i draw from you and truly do love you. I love you and you are my world, you are the most precious person in my life. All my life i prayed for someone like you and i thank God that i finally found you. Promise me that you will always be mine, i know in my heart our love will never die, you will always be a part of me and i'm a part of you indefinitely. I don't find enough words to describe how i feel about you. Your my every HEARTBEAT and every BREATH.

I LOVE YOU

Temple

"For a moment i forget about the world around me,

and just be in OUR own world, where WE see everything different"